Panic Attack

Prabumulih, 6 May 2012

Last saturday, I wake up by 6 am, thanks to my housemate that woke me up,
she asked me whether i would join her jogging around

still sleepy, i didnt answer and walk to the bathroom and do my morning ritual *ehem*
well, maybe i fall asleep at the toilet until my friend knocked on the door

"Are you awake?Do you want to join us?", she asked for the second time

"Yeah, i would, after you guys, i had a terrible stomachache", me answered (while yawning)

Then those girls left me

After that, i have to pray first, then walk to the bathroom again to brush my teeth
Hold on, actually im watching Raising Hope in the Star World, this is my fav tv serial

Finally im ready to jogging, when i opened the main door, my friend were back!
Apperantly they finished already, They laughed at me
But they still want to accompany me jogging around :D

We passed the hospital, and i heard woman's crying, and we saw several people are gathering around her in front of
emergency room. someone is passed away, maybe her family :(

Im sorry for her, whoever who's dead, may he rest in peace

suddenly i want to call my parents and tell them that i love them too much
A little bit dramatic, yea i know

I dont have many experience about death, but about panic attacked, its plenty.
I could easily get panic, when i start my presentation in front several people, doing public speaking, swimming, driving,
start new things, when i lost my files, and so many many more.

But then i manage how to control my panic attack *deep breath

Its not easy, just two weeks ago i have to be master of ceremony in the company event and it was attended by stakeholders.
And it goes to the main event but it didnt run as smooth as i wish before

My manager supposed to push a button which is a bell actually

But it didnt work, then i freezed and tried to be professional, i explained to the audience and said sorry about that

One case closed!

In our field, the road isnt like usual road that you have in the city, our road just plain ground, no tar or concrete
And when it rain, the ground transform to mud

I used to stuck in the mud one day, it made me panic a little bit
Thank God it didnt last for a long time, we saved!

Stuck in The Mud